My · world.

My christmas eve went pretty well. I did a morning shift, and then came home and slept for a while until dinner came along which went pretty well because i was nice and awake enough to open presents! hah. It's our tradition to open presents on the evening of christmas eve =) so i got a digital camera with a photo printer to complete the awesomeness. It was so nice, i'm glad my parents got me what i really wanted this year, although nothing beats having your family with you. Along with that, i got some other things like jewlery, panties! haha, a very nice 2k gold ring from my boyfriend Taylor & a scarface game on psp which i want to trade for the ps2 game since they're completely different. Why? um well lets see, the psp scarface is BS.. it's really boring and pointless. Whereas the ps2 game is really what i expected most, better than vice city =)

My christmas day was more like a lazy day, but it went well just slacking off =D

Lately as days go by, i fall more in love with my boyfriend Taylor. He is truly an amazing man... i have never met anyone as good as him. It makes more sense to me now =)

I got my grades in from exams and well the semester grade and i must say i did very well on all of my exams. I have never done this well on my exams since freshman year, and i'm very impressed with myself. For the semester grades i got like 3 B's and two C's i believe, and one D which is chemistry lol, but hey that's kinda obvious i mean i hated that class, but i'm glad i survived it. I'm actually looking foward to next semester mainly because it's just going to fly. I mean i have 4 classes in total which means im going to have 2 half days (taking dance off, they have no other position filled other than beginners. eff that.) This should be a better and easier semester!! then i graduate! how about that?

Hello future.

Yeeah so ive been slacking off lately go me. lol.

Yeah schools okay i guess, i like making new friends and talking and hangin out with all sorts of people. Shit's good. I learn new things everyday thats fer shure.

Works awesome, i <3 everyone haha

ive been shopping a lot lately.. i got jon his present for our 2 month !! :) it's going to be hottt
i can't wait till November.. thanksgiving.. seeing my dad <3

uggh i wanna drive wicked bad already...

so yeah it's wicked cold in here and i am wearing a hoodie. bleeeh winters coming so soon. okay i have like nothing to write in here lol...

This morning i woke up with Jon throwing pillows, a water bottle, turning my light on, and opening my blinds so i could wake up haha. "Get your ass up! we're going to lunch" hah. So we went out to lunch and then he drove me to his dorm so i could check it out. It was pretty cool we watched a Night at the Roxbury but that didn't last more than 2 minutes ;). Lol then we just like chilled and he showed me this video he needed to watch for psychology. It's about like why sleep is good for you and how it's not good for you when you don't get that much. It's like a cartoon video. "The Doze Family" Meet Joe Doze. lol, i call him Joe Blaze cuz he looks so fuckin high and it looks like his wife is out cheating on him considering they weren't in the same bed at night. haha. I got to meet Jon's neighbors though it was interesting, as soon as i got there Jon just randomly kicks his neighbors door because i guess its their thing haha. But yeah then tonight got pretty awkward. meh, But things got better.

I got home till like 7:45 and didn't feel like going to dance tonight because there was a lot of homework i needed to catch up to. I spent like an hour and a half looking for 3 civil war pictures and answering important questions about them. So it wasn't as easy as it sounds heh. Then i need to do Geometry homework tonight. shit fuckin sucks. I hate it. I was going to workout tonight but i knew i wouldn't because id get too damn tired and plus i need a lot of sleep. I already had a bunch of sleep last night. from like 3 am-12 pm hah. Oh! chicago was fucking awesome. i have liek a slideshow of all the pix but too bad i can't like save em into my file. However, i have some pictures on my phone haha, damn, i need a dig. cam so bad.

Tonight made me think about how nice it is to have a best friend, but no matter what.. most of the time, they don't even last as soon as you hit college. I think i'm that type of person who is into Family, Relationships, and friends. No bFF's this and that. I mean how many best friends have i had.. like 4? they all didn't last so good. I'm better off having friends and not a favorite. I end up getting wicked sick of em. Fuck true friends, you won't be with them after college. Period. True friends are friends you can make an effort being with for most of your life. I've had a talk with Mrs. Mantineo and she even told me the best friends she really thought she was going to be with for the rest of her life, changed, went their own ways.It's true as hell, as you get older you get a lot more wiser and you change a whole lot. She asked me "Are you the same person as you were Freshman year?" it just made me look back at like wow freshman year i didn't like the way i was. lol. I mean you wake up a whole new person sometimes. It's scary sometimes, but it's great. The only best friend she's been with her whole life is like 1 that she still sees. And congrats to the people who stick with their one best friend, but me, i don't wanna deal with it. I'm better off having the rest of my life with Family, Boyfriend, and friends.

Alot of people say, hey it's awesome to have a best friend whos there for you at all times and do a lot for you. And i agree, it is awesome. And i havn't experienced having someone like her walk into my life. But i re-think into the part where.. do i need a best friend who looks down on me as an idiot? do i need a best friend who dosn't understand me? The conclusion is, i don't have a best friend who understands me, because she really does think i am an idiot. I, and other people, know i am not an idiot. Why? because they KNOW the real me. And well in the last words, she dosn't.

I may not have a best friend, but i do have people who are there for me to talk to me about ANYTHING, and they do understand me. <3

I feel so calm without any drama on my hands, I don't have to deal with stupid people, it's so awesome.

Jon is coming over tonighhttt <3 wicked cool. Then i gotta go to work to fill in for megan :). Ahh i got to see mallory yesterday! i havn't seen her in so long haha she told me all bout her birthday and so many of her friends payed so much for her and gave her everything, wicked cool shit. She got a lot of stuff.

Anyways, i'm so excited coming into chicago tommorow bc im going to be spending the WHOLE DAY with my daddy <3 sooo excited. I don't know which friends i'm seeing but idk.. i have to stick with my dad though.

peace <3

So yesterday i did try out for the chs dance team and i made varsity!! i am so freakin happy now <3 <3 <3 there should be second tryouts for anyone who didn't know the tryouts were yesterday but as soon as i find out when the next tryouts are i'll keep you updated!!

Now i gotta work pretty soon but oh well. I made a new friend at work! her name is Kayla and shes wicked nice haha i love talking with her.

w00t w00t

Today i felt like a sweetheart for some reason. I don't know why. I feel a more mature, nicer change this year, it's cool.

So it turns out i'm going to the dance tryouts at school on friday then im going straight to work to fill in for my co-worker :) i love my job lol, i love my coworkers. this is a wicked great experience for me, i love being on register, i love most of my customers cuz they're all so nice and understanding haha. Then again, i said "most".

I love being with Jon. <3 he rocks my world

Well for starters, thinking of that poem Jon wrote me made me wanna cry of happiness. I honestly think i'm falling for him big time.. he's all i've ever wanted and im so incredibly happy <3

Saturday & Sunday i worked long hours like usual, and it was fun, i love all my coworkers lol <3 It was wicked busy today though.

Dreams are so interesting if you think about it because you feel like you're living in a moment that never really happend, yet you enjoy it because it's like a fantasy feeling like reality. Last nights dream wasn't the greatest though. Don't feel like talking about it either. =/ it's nothing serious just like.. bleh, this is crappy. I usually remember a lot of parts in my dreams.

alright so i actually had no homework for once.. it should be like that all the time. I was watching the channel 1 thingy in HR sometime this week and they were discussing how some schools are thinking about allowing to have friday as a part of a weekend. Meaning, kids will have 4 days a week now. I swear thats so fair because fridays yeah they do make a difference, however its a FRIDAY most of the time i guess kids don't have homework on weekends or people are doing labs, or special projects. I don't know, it is kinda important though if u think about it. It's FRIDAY though! you feel like its a free day where u dont do much. Seriously, its awesome though, i wish we had that so bad. it would make a lot of things so much better. Okay well it's wicked late so i better get off to sleep. Goodnight Dahlings <3

I swear i love being with Jon, he makes me wicked happy and im glad that i make him happy as well.

He wrote me a wicked sweet poem for our anniversary. I would post it up on here, but i honestly think it's a lil personal for EVERYONE to read it you know? so i think i'll put it on my myspace blog and set it under "Friends only" :) <3 myspace <3 haha.

I felt like today we connected so much more, just from the conversations we had and us hanging out together, wicked amazing.

Deerfield fair was soo much fun, although i WAS wicked hyper lol.Before we went, Jon and i went and picked up a couple friends Nick and his roomate Chi, wooot. So when we got there, we met up with jolin, mikey, and ambizzle. Amber convinced me to go to the Zipper. Last time i went on it i cried bc i was like ..7? lol but yeah WICKED FUN, before i went on it though, some kid puked all over the place and ugggh grosss. But we went on it anyways lol it got me more freaked out to go on it though because of that, made me feel like I was going to puke. meh, jon & amber made me go on it anyways haha. OMG me and jon were screaming so much shit on the ride, so much fun hahaha. Then we just walked around and shit, it was sooo cold though! felt like winter was coming up soon, and fall hasnt even like passed by yet. Oh! i also saw patty and some of her college buddies! i was happy hehehe Crazy. But that makes me think if winter is coming early, will it end early? So after all that fun, me, jon, nick and chi went to the backroom and chilled with some of their friends there. Then jolin and mike met up with us.. and we just chilled for like an hour and a half. They made this happy face with ketchup on a plate haha i took a pic of it! for some reason, text mode isnt working for me, so i guess i cant post it heh.
When i went to the resturaunt though i was so friggin tired i was bout to pass out on jons shoulder. So we left later..and then Jon dropped me off so here i am typing everything that happend in my night lol, i have to work soooo early tommorow 7:45 am- 4 pm. Hopefully i get to hang out with my baby again. We both get out at 4, we have nothing to do after that, i felt like we should just take advantage of our free time. But i know paying a lot of money these days for gas just sucks, so idk whats going to happen. Well im going to go to bed now.. wicked tireeed <3

Happy Anniversery baby :)

So the great news so far is that Amber has the friday night off. Wahoo! she wants me to take a day off but i really don't wanna take the whole day off spending the whole day at the fair you know? i did last year, but i would much rather wanna go later this year. Anyways, Jon wouldn't come to my house until 4 and i want to spend some alone time since we're celebrating our 1 month lol. I bought him a nice card along with a written note in it :o) i would have gotten him a present, however, i'm going to the fair so i have to bring a lot of money.

Lately ive been getting french vanilla coolattas at dunkins.. soo good lol.

Working at JCPenney's is so much fun! i love being cashier, hehe. And i also got to talk a lot with my co-worker, Mallory, she's wicked cool and awesome to talk to. I just rememberd to that her birthday was this wednsday! i hope i can pick up a birthday card for her too before i go to work this saturday. Damn if i only had thought of it too as i was picking up Jon's card.Oh well.

This year i feel like i need to depend on my planner a lot more than i used to and its not only because of homework. Like, now i have more responsibilities to take care of like making phone calls, remembering what to get at stores, my works schedule, and i notice i forget to do a lot of that and it makes me so mad lol so yeah if i write it all down it'll help me remember better.

The people i sit with at lunch are pissing me off wicked bad. They call me stupid just because i don't hear what they said sometimes. Like if theyre in a conversation and i ask them an off-topic question that actually, they just pretty much said what i asked to eachother, they call me stupid. Oh, im sorry, was i supposed to eavesdrop in everything you guys are saying? arn't you supposed to be happy that i didn't even get everything you said before i asked you a question? One of my pet peeves is how people complain about the stupidest shit when they should appreciate things more often. Like Keith (dude at my lunch table) would bitch bout how is mom.. like i forgot the things he said but i know for a fact they weren't half as bad as i've heard bout other moms. So i said, u know what i've heard much worse, why should i listen to this? you should be greatful she at least cares bout you instead of saying harsh things to you or just ignores you and lets you do whatever you want. You should be happy she puts food on the table,and a roof over your head. Yeah, i have to admit, my mom and i fight sometimes, but most of the time, after a fight i feel wicked bad for being a bitch to her because i seriously look back on how much she gives me EVERYDAY. everyday! shes wicked overprotective n thats what i really dislike, however, i knew that if she changed into letting me do things whatever i wanted, i wouldn't like it because i would know she dosn't care anymore. And she cares alot. Sometimes when i say all these good things bout her like i did in my journal for my psychology of communications class, i'd almost cry because im so greatful in what she's given me my whole entire life. Anyways, and i hate it how kids name-call their parents because they're so fuckin spoiled they want everything and don't appreciate shit. Yeah, people may think im spoiled as well, but i don't bitch at my parents like a lil spoiled brat. I say thank you for everything i get, because i know they worked hard into getting me that one item. Which is why i also got a job, i don't wanna have my parents pay for all the stuff that is unneeded. That dosn't mean im going to put all my paychecks on clothes, heck no. Yeah, i'll splurge here and there but thats my money, so why should i feel guilty? anyways, every paycheck i get, im putting 50 percent of it in the bank so i can save up for much important things. And then i'll probably pay for my shit that ive wanted for quite a while. Like my cartiladge piercing, i'm still trying to decide whether i should get it or not. Or the new britney spears fragrance, i still havn't bought it, in fact, i havn't even finished curious yet. But i think i should hold on that for a while. So i don't know, i know i can't spend all my money on one day just because i know i have money. That can't be right. I need to learn how to spend my money wisely. And that's my goal :o)

But anyway, so after they pissed me off (lunch kids), i turned my back and just wanted to finish my chips so i can get out of there and figure out what i wanted to do for the rest of the mod. So i was spacing out the whole time and Jena's like.. michelle? what are you staring at? haha i was like oohh hey! so i just sat at her table and we talked the whole time. I love her, shes such a sweetheart. And i just rememberd liek how much of a fun time ive had with her and amber at ambers birthday party last march. But yeah, then she put me in a calm mood too which was awesome. So i guess i'll just talk to her same mod like monday. :)

well im going to go and walk my dog sometime =/ lol

Yesterday was a lot of fun with Jon :o) we did the cutest things together...

he tickled me wicked bad on my neck it was incredibly cute. We took some goofy pictures, and he helped me with my spanish homework haha, and we tried taking a picture of him "from his senior pic pose" it was wicked cute.

arn't we the sexiest  people EVER? ;)

Isn't he adorable?? :o) <3

i worked a total of 18 hours this weekend wooh! I'm not gonna work this week.. only on Saturday which is the day that me and jon were supposed to celebrate our 1 month. However, he's still coming over friday so we'll have plenty of time to celebrate haha. Then,ambizzle called and mentioned the deerfield fair and i got soo excited and she's like i dont know if i could do it friday.. preferably saturday. But then i told her i was busy saturday so she dosnt know yet if someone is filling in for her friday night. I can't have someone fill me in for saturday because i just started working this week plus i already requested 2 days off. (In oct.) So we're going to see if she can friday night. Also, Jolin's going with Amber, so it's going to be a great hangout with me and Jon too. but im not talking to jolin!! >:!

It's been like 4 days since i havn't posted on the forum WAHOO! it's that addicting.

Jon's coming over todayyy :) i miss him.

This day went by pretty fast. Maybe its because working for so long this past weekend got me to realize school isnt that long. Well thats all i gots ta post for now :o) goodbye!

Today, school was pretty usual. heh. I think i bombed my geometry test though, sucks.

I came home..walked mattie.. took a shower.. jon came over.. we played ddr for a lil bit.. then his friend called and so jon invited him to come see a movie with us. His friend, Nick, is wicked cool. He's really funny haha. Anyways, so yeah we couldn't think of which theatre to go to due to the times so we just went to the manchester one and decided to see 40 year old virgin. Too bad i'm not even 17, they asked for an ID and i didn't even have mine with me anyways, but of course they rejected us getting in, so fucking lame. Most theatres don't even fucking care.. once they see like 17 + with people younger than them.. they just let it pass by. Whatevaa.. So we called a couple theatres i think tried to get movie times. Then we decided to go to the 9:30 show at flagship. So we went into the city and just like chilled at Ceasarios for a while and ate. Then we went to this cafe and saw some jazz band play. pretty cool. i got a vanilla iced coffee from there, it was okay. Had a bit of a craving for an iced coffee today so i thought i could get it. Then some waiter came up to us and was like hey i think i have to dismiss you guys from the table if you arn't going to buy anything because people are wanting to get in and eat. And then Nick and Jon were like oh okay thats cool.. but she (me) bought a coffee by the way, but thats cool. So after that, the waiter just gave us a wicked rude look and left. We're thinking...wtf? But we left.. n then we went and drove to flagship and we saw 40 year old virgin.. its soo funny i love that movie. i wouldn't see it again though. It was kind of like Wedding Crashers.. it was funny the first couple of times ive seen it.. n then im like.. yeah i wont see it for the 3rd time heh. They liked the movie though, so i'm glad. We had some pretty cool conversations though.. it was fun to talk about haha. So yeah in 7 days is me and jons 1 month anniversary! i cant wait! <3 goodnight everyone!

~*Michelle*~

So i was looking at Jons old LJ, like back in 2004 and it made me think about a few things. It made me go back in time where i was pretty much a lot like him back in the day in elementary and junior high. Partially high school as well.

The Young years sucked shit for me.. i hated it all. However, i can't regret things back then because i wouldn't be who i was today. It's funny how you look back at things and realize that those things make you who you are today. Anyway, i was picked on A LOT i was a young ugly kid who people didn't like because i was so defensive and self-concious and shit. It sucks when you're a kid and have to go through that & depression. Junior high sucked as well fuckin ..more people picked on me, went through bad experiences, got ganged up on, it was so horrible i hated myself i was so depressed to the point where i wanted to kill myself.

However, 8th grade was the introduction to a new world for me. I made more friends.. but i went through some phase change where i thought i was so punk and shit haha but still it was a good experience i met some cool and bad people and just went through some weird shit. I won't forget the winter of 8th grade though <3 wow like romances and rendevous and shit it was so awesome haha i met some cool and bad people of course went through ups and downs but it was a fun moment for me :) and well i remember going out with this kid Zak (who i just started talking to again last night!!) and well gosh theres like so many memories with connections! oh fuck speaking of connections this is why i have so many friends TODAY i dont know whos reading this but if you know Alexx W. ?? damn i remember being friends with her and like one day i was like hey can i have some of your friends screenames? i really wanna make new friends n shit so instead of a "few" she gave me her whole buddylist! i was like hmm! so i IMED like EVERYBODY RIGHT?! this is how i even met edgar!! haha aww man n so i would make friends through her friends n on n on n on liek for example.. i met edgar.. then thats how i knew like araceli, and then i met juan through alexx n then i met some other people by juan i guess. umm i met stephanie by hangin out with keli and alexx one day when me araceli, stephanie, alexx and keli all went to the mall and like got kicked out haha and then i met jake h by stephanie! n then i met jimmy by jake! n then i met BONER, DUSTIN, CHRIS O, AND LIKE ALL OF THEIR FRIENDS BY JIMMY! gosh i cannot believe i remember all this im getting so excited! im just amazed by the connections ive bad like back in the day ugggh man so awesome ive met so many freakin people thanks to alexx i swear i love her for that oh right and i met monica b. by reina and i met reina by angel n im trying to think how the fuck i met angel... (hes a guy by the way) and wanna know how i knew zak ? from monica ! haha wanna know how i met ceaser? (ew) by zak! wanna know how i met yes!! now i remember. k Adam, Idas & james totally remember them . I met them by reina!! and then i met james ex girlfriend katie by james!! alright im done with that shit.

but to the people who made my life a living hell during 7th grade of jr. high, id love to say  fuck you ALL YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!! YOU CAN ALL KISS MY ASS!!!!!!

So anyways, high school was alot better for me, i made even more great friends,dated more, got prettier lol ,by sophmore year it was just finally settled for me to have a normal life like everyone else however i didnt get high, i didnt have sex, i didnt freakin get drunk like most of the teenage population lol i didnt even get invited to parties at all. Whatever, there was a period of time where i was completely lonely and wanted a boyfriend soo bad. I wanted a relationship where a guy can really have feelings for me like i have for him but i guess i had to wait a while. So now it all changed, starting from the summer before i hit junior year, i did alot of things i never expected of doing. but before all this happend. During sophmore year i met the coolest girl EVER and her name is AMBER i swear this chick rocks my life. Shes the most awesomest best friend ive had in my entire life! where would i be without this chick? this summer i met a really awesome guy, his name is Nate.. he taught me things i never knew and i had the best time with him during the summer.

I'm going to make a point that joining Netrilix.com really changed me as well.It made me think of a lot of things i never really would have done on my own,but with these people telling me shit it just makes me have second thoughts on things. Maybe because its a forum of everyone gathering different opinions that i can actually look into to see whats right in my eyes.

 

and now i have an amazing boyfriend, Jon <3 he makes me wicked happy and i love being with him. :)

Things are going good right now.. i just need to focus more on geometry and ecology.

Me and ambizzle arn't fighting anymore, infact i can't keep a grudge on this girl i adopted her! what am i to do without her? :)

Pines is closing.. i wonder why!!

Me and Nate having been talking a lot more lately bout anything its just awesome.Infact im going to go to his favorite store (newbys) and buy him some stuff since they don't have a newbury comics in florida. haha this will be fun

I still have an amazing time with Jon, he makes me laugh, he makes me happy, i enjoy being around him and talking to him<3
and amber and jolin lol

i still think adler man brings love n warmth to my heart! hahaha

Can't wait to start my job w00t. make some money! oh yeah me and my mommy went shopping today for some casual clothing for work! haha woot cant wait to wear these sexy pants of mine haha :)

I pimped out my locker fo sho. I put Ambers Car freshner that she didn't wanna use bc she didnt like the smell of it. But just incase some person puts a rotten lunch box in their locker like freakin last year, and stinks up my locker, i have a car freshner in there to prevent it from stinking :) and i put a nice mirror with a pink frame so instead of walking in the bathroom to check my hair out haha i have my own. ooo yeah.

Last night amber, jon, n jolin came over..fun stuff like always <3

blahh this weekend ive been sick it sucks so bad but i got my taste n smell back yayy

I signed up to be in the yearbook commitee with amber n jena :) I saw pattys sister Ali in there too so this should be fun!

okay so do i miss my best friend *eye roll* . whatever, whenever she wants to talk to me again im all up for it. No way i can hold a grudge against her for more than week.

ANYWAYS
i got hired at JCPENNNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYY HEEEEEEEE YYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY. so happy. So i start next tuesday! woop woop! then me n my parents celebrated at this chinese resturaunt.

This year is so different. I honestly can't figure out why though.

Wicked bad.. i was so grumpy by the end of the day because of crabby teachers.. waking up early..waiting hours in front of my guidence counselors office... lol it was just so bad and other than that i kept on getting bashed on by people on the forum and it was just horrible,So i had jon come over and that cheered me up :) the next day (today) was just better. but i met this girl at the guidence and i havnt seen her since but aww shes such a sweetheart and she seems so outgoing!. Then i met like 2 other nice people in my psychology of communications class. N like 2 freshies on my bus.. that i dont even take anymore! yay! i get a ride by ambizzle now wooh

I had my whole schedule arranged fair enough for junior year.

Spanish II
Psychology of communications
Psychology (used to be a free mod but im in the process of getting that class filled mod c)
Geometery
US History
and i have mods f,g and h off lol wooh!

I noticed i had a lil change in the beginning of the year and i think my responsibility is increasing hah.

yes i am going out with jon hehe 8/31/05. i am soo happy because i like him soo much and i love talking to him, hangin out with him, listening to music with him. It's awesome, i love it.

This saturday im going to canada ! w00t w00t! and THIS time we won't leave early heck yes! haha ill be back monday though.

mm that is all for updates..